Headphonaught's Nanolog: Olly :: THE SUNSHINE OF MY LIFE

My life recently wrote some sweet words about me... and us on her blog and I just wanted to respond... publicly... to her.

There is a phrase that haunts me... its from Bladerunner >> At the end the Roy Batty Nexus 6 gives a marvelous monologue:

I've seen things...(long pause)
seen things you little people wouldn't believe... Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion bright as magnesium... I rode on the back decks of a blinker and watched c-beams glitter in the dark near the Tanhauser Gate.
(pause)
all those moments... they'll be gone.

Bladerunner

The phrase that haunts me is at the start... about seeing things you people wouldn't believe.

Why does this matter... especially in the context of my love for my wife?

Well... the intimacy that comes from 10 years married and 15 years together is that I am not alone... and the things I have seen are also, for the most part, the things Olly has seen... and, as such, they won't be lost like tears in the rain.

We have shared so much... seen awesome sites like the cities of Venice, Rome and London... or the raw beauty of Ben Nevis shrouded in cloud. We have watched as our girls learned to walk and then... later on... ride their bikes.

I could go on for ages... its a together thing... a sharing of experience... the most basic and most beautiful form of community or should I say communitas.

When I express my love for Olly... its specific in its individualistic focus... to paraphrase the football terraces... there's only one Olwyn Mathie!!!

...but my love for Olly is also a metaphor for my love of the God and the world He created and in which we inhabit. To love my wife is to love life in all its glory... and decay. Its about the... in sickness and in health... part of my vows. By loving my wife... I enter into a spiritual journey that just gets better and better. I can understand loving someone so much... I would be prepared to die for them. This isn't some corny soft-rock sentiment but real truth. Read Rob Bell's Sex God and you'll know what I mean.

Why do birds suddenly appear..?

Its true... My love brings this life alive... Sunsets mean more when I am stood next to Olly. Songs on the radio mean more when Olly is in the car beside me. Ice cream tastes more vibrant when shared. 1st Corinthians 13 means more to me... because I have Olly in my life.

So yeah... our love isn't as fresh as it was... but it is more beautiful! Our love... my love for you... your love for me... grows more beautiful everyday. Freshness relates to newness... and I am glad our love isn't new... I am a neophiliac... I love new things... but I think familiar is wonderful too. In this context familiar reassures... protects... comforts.

Familiar isn't a bad thing... think of the first cup of tea in the morning... or the heat of the sun on your face. Sweetheart... you are my sunshine...

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life
That's Why I'll Always Stay Around
You Are The Apple Of My Eye
Forever You'll Stay In My Heart

I Feel Like This Is The Beginning
Though I've Loved You For A Million Years
And If I Thought Our Love Was Ending
I'd Find Myself Drowning In My Own Tears

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life
That's Why I'll Always Stay Around
You Are The Apple Of My Eye
Forever You'll Stay In My Heart

You Must Have Known That I Was Lonely
Because You Came To My Rescue
And I Know That This Must Be Heaven
How Could So Much Love Be Inside Of You

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life
That's Why I'll Always Stay Around
You Are The Apple Of My Eye
Forever You'll Stay In My Heart

You Are The Sunshine Of My Life
That's Why I'll Always Stay Around
You Are The Apple Of My Eye
Forever You'll Stay In My Heart